So I found myself hardly able to sleep last night. This was partly due to the two boys who were up and down all night either crying, burning up with a fever or throwing up. The rest of the time was about Cliff... who did not have a good day yesterday. This left me feeling so terrible. So .. helpless. I found that the only thing I wanted was for him to feel better. I hate when he is angry or upset. It literally makes my chest hurt when I think of all he has to do at times. I just want to take his burdens and lighten his load.. although I think a lot of his burden has to do with the boys and myself right now but I just want him to be happy.
I HOPE THAT THIS PART NEVER GETS ANY EASIER! I hope that I always feel this way when he is upset. I hope that all I ever want for him is happiness and love. I hope that his happiness is always first and foremost in my thoughts. This is what it is supposed to be like, RIGHT?!
Cliff, Honey, I love you. I hope that today is a GREAT day for you. I miss you and can't wait to see you Saturday!
Together we can feel unified and directed.
7 hours ago