Tuesday, March 17, 2009

I hope it NEVER gets easier!!

So I found myself hardly able to sleep last night. This was partly due to the two boys who were up and down all night either crying, burning up with a fever or throwing up. The rest of the time was about Cliff... who did not have a good day yesterday. This left me feeling so terrible. So .. helpless. I found that the only thing I wanted was for him to feel better. I hate when he is angry or upset. It literally makes my chest hurt when I think of all he has to do at times. I just want to take his burdens and lighten his load.. although I think a lot of his burden has to do with the boys and myself right now but I just want him to be happy.

I hope that I always feel this way when he is upset. I hope that all I ever want for him is happiness and love. I hope that his happiness is always first and foremost in my thoughts. This is what it is supposed to be like, RIGHT?!

Cliff, Honey, I love you. I hope that today is a GREAT day for you. I miss you and can't wait to see you Saturday!


  1. As for me, I hope that these feelings never change either. For how do we truly appreciate the wonderful things in life, if we never have to suffer the bad? Loving others, and carrying their burdens is the true meaning of Charity...and charity should always begin in the home.
    Wish I could be there, my dear girl, to help you carry this burden. I love you, and hope that things getter better really soon - and Cliff, welcome to the burden of our family. You will find it one worth carrying!

  2. As far as I'm concerned...it probably won't get easier. Barry and I have been married for almost 8 years now and I still feel that sick feeling every time he is upset. I can't stand it! I just want to make him happy and whole again.

    I'm sure it will be the same for you and Cliff. I don't know him yet, but I do know you. And you are just the kind of person who cares deeply for others. You always try to make life better for your friends and family. You're awesome!