Thursday, January 29, 2009
Honey.... You had a hard day yesterday, for that I am sorry. This morning is certainly off to a great start because you called me at 6:03 am. You don't know how happy it makes me to hear your voice in the morning. I love that I fall asleep to your voice and that I wake up to your voice.
You are such a treat to know and love. I am a very lucky woman. Our boys (I have never been able to say that to anyone) are so lucky to know and love you.
I love your sweet smile and your kisses. I love your hugs and I LOVE HOLDING HANDS with you. I never dreamed mine could fit so perfectly in someone else's.
Being with you is like a dream. It is a dream that I never want to wake up from. I want to frolic in the sun (in low humidity of course) and lay with my head on your chest as I listen to you breathing all day every day.
You make me happy so happy, My Dearest Mr. Lovely. I am so looking forward to the day that I become your MRS. LOVELY. Thank you for your love and your beautiful spirit. I love the laughter that erupts and the fun that ensues when you are around. :)
I love you my Sweet, Kind, Loving, Sexy, Phabulous, DID I mention SEXY...... Man
My heart is yours for the rest of life.... maybe longer.
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
I long to see the boys rush him as he walks through the door, instead of wait in line to speak with him on the phone. I long for the day that I can fall asleep to more of him than just the sound of his voice. I sleep with a cell phone gripped in my hand most nights. When I wake up through the night, I just tap a button and his face lights up on my phone. I take what I can get for now!!
I long for the days to come.... When we are together!
Sunday, January 25, 2009
Saturday, January 24, 2009
My parents are in town this weekend for the funeral of a very close friend, Vickie Jo Studstill. Tonight, as I watched and listened to my parents visit with my children, my brother, Simon, and his wife, Mindi... My heart was so thankful for the short time that we had together this evening. It made me miss Cliff more than ever and it has left me with thoughts of the days to come.
I thought of how I rushed around this morning mopping floors and doing laundry when no one would have cared what the house looked like. I know that I should not stress over how clean (or dirty) the kitchen floor is, if my bed is made or if the laundry is all done... WHO AM I KIDDING, THE LAUNDRY IS NEVER ALL DONE!!
The important things are simply being with family. I want to spend every moment I can with those I love. I never realized how much time I spent with my parents until they moved away. Now, I miss them so much that when they are here, it breaks my heart to see them leave. I never realized how wonderful it would be to find someone that would love the boys and I as Cliff does. Now that I know what it is like to have someone special here on Christmas morning, I never want to lose that. I love that Cliff asks about the boys and that they would text him every minute of every day if they could. FAMILY IS IMPORTANT... LOVE IS IMPORTANT... THE TEACHINGS of THE CHURCH are SO IMPORTANT...
Don't get me wrong, I am happy that my floors are mopped and clean but I am more happy that my family is nearly whole. I am happy that Cliff is a righteous priesthood holder and that he is an excellent example to the boys. He is the most kind, respectful, loving person that I have ever known and the boys and I are blessed to know him and to have captured his heart.
I am thankful for the important things in my life tonight and hopefully I will be able to remember them when I am thinking that I would look better driving a TAHOE than a FOCUS or when I think that I should read TWILIGHT for the seventh time and not the Doctrine & Covenants :)
Thursday, January 22, 2009
Cliff, thank you for everything last weekend. Corey, Caleb and I had such a great time. It gets harder and harder to say good bye but Hello gets better and better. You are so wonderful and I am blessed because of it. I love you.
Sunday, January 11, 2009
After a few emails in the real world, and after I gave him my number and he called. How do you not fall in love with that voice on the other end of the line. I was so excited and very grateful that he did not have a NEW YORK ACCENT! Some time passed and as conversations came and went, I wanted so very much to meet him. The time finally came and I thought I would die of anxiety before he got here. I was not able to eat all day, I was terrified that he would take one look at me and the expression on his face would be enough to know that he thought I was a hideous cow! Ughhhh, I was truly terrified. Then, I look up at the airport... and there he is. A few feet from me, smiling that perfect smile. We hugged and I knew in that instant that I loved Cliff Devries.
I know that Heavenly Father's love for us runs so deep. Despite this knowledge, I am still not certain some times that I am deserving of such a wonderful man. Every aspect of our relationship has been guided by Heavenly Father, of that I am sure. I have three boys, two of which have been without their father for 10 years now. What a blessing. I love Cliff with all my heart and I am so looking forward to being his wife. my dreams are filled of images at the temple and of our lives to come. The boys, although at times upset about leaving their friends, have fallen in love with Cliff as well and I never dreamed it would all fit together so neatly.
For those of you I have yet to meet, (Cliff's friends and family) I am very much looking forward to being a part of your lives. For those of you I already know and love: Thank you for your love, support and excitement. Thank you for welcoming Cliff with open arms and supporting us.
Cliff, honey, you are absolutely wonderful. You are my knight in shining armour. I love you more than I thought it possible to love another human being. My whole life now consists of making sure that you and the boys are happy. Thank you for being such an incredible man. I am so lucky to have caught your attention and I am truly looking forward to being your wife and keeping you happy for the rest of life.... maybe longer :) I love you!
Thursday, January 8, 2009
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
Tuesday, January 6, 2009